Things you can pray about…
Thanks for all the encouragement from my last two posts. My community, my village, my people, my stranger friends: I am blessed by you.
Here’s a quick brain dump of what I’m thinking about, written mostly with very selfish motivations so that you can pray for me:
-Thank you for the encouragement about my last two posts. Today is Chemo Day: I’m in the chairs now. Please pray that the cancer would be diminished/reduced/eliminated! I’m having a cancer/PET scan on Monday June 22; Rockstar confirmed it today. Please pray that scanxiety would be absent for me and for those who love me: regardless of what the films show, we know that I am LIVING with cancer and LIVING well indeed. I’m focusing on what I can control!
-To run, or not to run: that is the question. I’m mulling over the marathon idea. A great many things are making me think it is a great idea: friends offering to train with me, a general “you go girl” consensus from people who know me, and the buck-stops-here sense of defiance it leaves me with in regard to my cancer. The things that are holding me back are fear (obviously working on that one), worry about my toes specifically, worries about my general health, and time/energy life balance.
-Overwhelmed with life: Brad and I are quick to prioritize the sweet stuff of life. The minutae, however, is also important. I try to ignore the hum of the not-important-stuff until I can address it, but between our busy palooza schedule and my lost time with treatment, the not-urgent-but-needs-to-be-done list is epic. Will you help me to either energize for or set aside: weeding, fans in girls bedrooms, medical paperwork sort and bill pay, mulching, thank you notes. There’s a bunch more but those are on my radar “for today”, which is totally unrealistic!
-Brad and I are prayerfully taking on an exercise where we metaphorically throw all our assumptions about our life into the air and want to be intentional with the ones we choose to catch. We want to make sure our time, energy, money, and love are going to all the right places. It is hard to do and I’m feeling challenged and wobbly as I am not a fan of change! But, to God be the glory… that’s what I want my/our life to reflect.
-My poor little toes. This is summer #4 with my big toes living in band-aids. After four surgeries and an invested podiatrist, I still keep getting infections in my big toes. It’s problematic for so many reasons. It’s minor in the grand scheme of things, but I would still appreciate prayers for my toes to just. be. normal. and. healthy. I miss pretty toes, especially in the summer!
-Maren and Greta. How can I be the best mama to them? What are their giftings and talents and challenges? I want to call out their beauty and teach them to be brave and kind. I love summer, and it is so wonderful to have them home so much during these long days. My intention is to be present, intentional and fun with them: help me to follow through!
-My village. I’m asking a lot of my people, so pray that all our communications would be strong. I have to trust that people only say yes to what is energizing for them and that they are not letting me and my circumstances overtake them. It is hard to ask for help!
Thank you for your prayers and happy thoughts; I so appreciate it! It is so encouraging to have people rally around me in so many different ways.
I will send down showers in season; there will be showers of blessings. — Ezekiel 34:26