Ladies, you know that towel turban thing you do on your head when you get out of the shower so that your wet hair doesn’t drip all over the place?
I did that this morning.
Subconsciously, I did that towel thing. For the first time — probably — since March/April of 2012, since that was the last time I had enough hair to be drippy wet.
It was weird. I froze in the mirror when I saw myself. I was awash with gratitude. I feel again that my Jen-self is continuing to pursue normalcy and — even subconsciously — it feels like I am fighting for: strength, health, normal, free, wellness. It’s manifesting the physical entities of the joy, hope, bravery, peace, love, kindness, courage that I fight for in my mind. I’m glad I’m consistent! Doing the hard work: choosing the goodness in every situation pays off in that that’s how I roll. It’s my go-to, my comfort zone, my resting place. I’ve trained myself to live this way, and it’s one of the best gifts I’ve given myself.
It was a year ago this week that I finished my last rainbow treatment with a chemo drug (I’ve continued my biological drugs every three weeks since then), and I was bald. I had NED (No Evidence of Disease) status then, and I pray daily that I will have NED status for a long time to come.
It’s funny how much gratitude I found in my towel turban today. Gratitude is everywhere. Call it out, people. Call it out.