Well, people. I’ve got some cardiac symptoms going on. (Shortness of breath, chest constriction, etc.) The medical team is on it, and I’m not in cardiac distress, which is a really good thing. The symptoms come and go, and are not related to exertion on my part.
Since Herceptin (the drug I am supposed to get every week) can cause heart problems (and is possibly the culprit here), I did not get Herceptin this week. Yesterday I had an echocardiogram, which is a fancy ultrasound of the heart. Dr. Gold (cardiologist) or Dr. Wonderful (oncologist) will call me with the results later in the week.
Best case scenario: Dr. Gold adjusts my heart medicines and my heart restores to normal-enough function over the next weeks/months so that I can resume Herceptin.
Worst case scenario: My heart function has declined to the point where it is too dangerous for me to receive Herceptin, and I am done with that drug.
Since this cardiac development is neither final, nor fatal, I shall keep my chin up, and do today well. I can handle a setback, especially a setback that does not change my No Evidence of Disease status. The incident of the suspicious lump under my arm reminds me to have perspective and to be thankful for today. That day, I was afraid. Today, I am not afraid.
Today, I am as busy as every other mom in the country preparing for the costume-y goodness that is Halloween. Today, I’ll go to radiation and keep my phone with me in case a doctor calls. Today, I choose joy as I bounce back and forth between cancer-maintenance and my blessed life.
And if you would, please pray for my heart. In all senses of the word. Thank you!