Cancerversary

Sep 19

I was diagnosed six months ago today.  It is both a blink and an eternity. I’m still in the cancer journey.  As expected, the journey did not end with my surgery: there is still much to do.  Receiving my NED (no evidence of disease) is awesome.  All of the treatment I am undergoing currently aims to maintain that status, well, forever. I have eight doctors’ appointments this week.  Eight. So far, I have six scheduled for next week. The number of speciality “–ologists” I see is getting comical.  Seriously, I didn’t even know there were this many areas of doctor-hood, let alone that they could all possibly be interested in me.  But they are, and I am grateful.  This period of time is all about taking every action possible to mitigate the chances of cancer recurrence.  Everyone wants to weigh in, to offer their contribution to maintain NED’s presence.  I wish to leave no stone unturned, I wish to give my body every advantage, I wish to have no regrets. So, bring on the appointments.  Bring on the ridiculously large team of doctors.  Bring on the prayers of NED forever. Between healing and appointments, I am booked.  Supergramma is exceedingly amazing and appears to be running my household better than I normally run it.  (Seriously!)  I flash in and out to spend time with Maren.  Greta and I see each other in small doses.  (I am still very sore post-Greta visits.  She does not yet understand “gentle.”)  Brad is burning the candle at both ends with a hectic and stressful work week, and pulling extra parenting duties when he can.  I am busy, but it is a good busy: I am doing important work.  I miss my normal-life-routine, but I have to do this risk management before I can resume normal daily operations.  As I tend to do, I’m embracing it, and appreciating it for what it is: hope. At the end of most days, I ask myself: did I Do Today Well? While I’m certainly not perfect, I sleep well at night knowing that I’m doing the best I can.  I’m not in control of most things about my life.  At the very least, I like to think that...

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Quiet

Sep 12

Surgery. Well, it was two weeks ago.  I haven’t really blogged much about it.  The highlights are pretty much that Dr. Awesome aced her job and cut all of the cancer that was left after chemo. So now, I am NED and cancer-free! Everything else kind of pales in comparison, so it seems insignificant to blather about pain, side effects, drains, body image, and general gimpiness.  Should I leave it at that?  Do you want to know more? The hardest part of surgery is that it necessitated I step out of my normal life.  Staying at my parents’ house was definitely the right call: I can’t imagine the physicality of my regular life right now.  (Ouch.  And thank you SuperGramma.)  Happily, I’ve been able to see a lot of Maren; she moves between school, friends, me, Brad, and SuperGramma with ease.  SuperGramma is on Greta-duty, except when Brad is able to step in and relieve her.  I can’t wait to get my strength back so I can be “all in” as Mom again.  I’ll reunite with Greta over the next week and time will tell how long it takes me to get back to full power. I entertain visitors, I have an amazing amount of medical appointments to go to, I am volunteering at Maren’s school tomorrow (a low-key role), I am working on a book of family photos, I am writing letters.  I am busy doing many of the things that are on my perpetual naptime/evening to-do list that never actually get done.  I am embracing the quietude, knowing that this relative alone time is valuable in its own way. I miss my family.  I miss running.  I miss the chaos.  I miss G’s enthusiastic, “Mom-ME!” every five seconds. However, I love creating my own schedule, doing what  I want whenever I want, and sleeping in. I know: you’re jealous now. It’s really quite impossible to be sad or lonely or cranky. No Evidence of Disease....

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Press

Sep 11

For anyone who might be interested, an article about me appeared in Monday’s Cincinnati Enquirer; it is also online here. Happy reading!

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Ovation

Sep 10

Tonight I stood with about twenty other breast cancer survivors in the center of a gymnasium while we received a lengthy and enthusiastic standing ovation at Volley For the Cure.  I am humbled to have been in the room with such greatness.  Thank you to the Mastermind for orchestrating it, to every volunteer who contributed, and to every person who attended tonight’s event.  You made a difference today. Next I plan on participating in the Susan G. Komen for the Cure event in Cincinnati on September 29th.  As I’ve said here before, I want fifty more  years: it will exciting to see what developments are made in breast cancer treatment during those fifty years. Hope, people....

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Volley For The Cure

Sep 09

Volley For The Cure! Monday September 10th 4:30-8:30(ish) @ Lakota West High School The Freshman, JV, and Varsity teams will all play a regular season match against Beavercreek.  All proceeds and donations go to the Susan G. Komen organization for breast cancer.  Pizza and other ball game fare are available for dinner.  There are all kinds of silent auctions, raffles, and games for the kids.  I brought 4-year-old Maren last year, and she had a blast–this is a kid-friendly event.  I’ll be doing the coin toss for the Varsity game, and hope to see lots of you there. Thank you for your...

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