My doctor and I agree, the tumor is a little smaller. The lymph node is smaller too. This is good thing. Dr. Wonderful is confident that we are in a better position today than we were one month ago. Also, he is happy that my body is tolerating the treatment. (Gravity: not everyone tolerates the treatment.) So, I have to be patient while the treatment progresses. But. It is hard sometimes. Today, in fact, it is hard. The changes are not dramatic. In this case, I would like a little drama. As in: “Poof! No cancer.”
Wait patiently for the Lord. Be brave and courageous. Yes, wait patiently for the Lord. –Psalm 27:14
Late tonight, I realized the date is April 19th. I was diagnosed on Day 1: March 19. I am still at the beginning of a very long process.
Chemo is only Step One in a plan with an unknown number of steps. I have received only two of sixteen chemo treatments. I must pace myself for the road ahead.
Chemo’s job in the coming months: shrink the tumor(s) to the point where Dr. Awesome can operate and cut the cancer out. My job in the coming months: do today well.
Be still in the presence of the Lord, and wait for Him to act. –Psalm 37:7
So tonight I wait.
While I wait, I pray for what is happening right now: that chemo would be strangling and shrinking the cancer.
Refine me, Jesus. Please.
Let all that I am wait quietly before God, for my hope is in Him. –Psalm 62:5